HELLO.
noi. 100493
i have flaws but i have feelings too. i'm only eighteen, i've made mistakes that i'm not proud of and will continue making mistakes. i'm only human. but i love you. always will.

My birthday is coming!Its 5 days away but somehow i dont feel that enthu or excited. I feel rather sad actually. I think i am down with a temperature. I am having a blocked/running nose, my tekak is kiling me,my eyes are swell up, i haven't eaten the whole day, i feel so hungry til i have no mood to eat(crap). I really want to join the dance but as usual, they, just wont allow. why wont they allow me to dance outside? Oh my job now is to study,study and study and silat. Nothing more. Want to dance, only in school. They just dont understand maybe. You see, I've been choosen, I've been choosen to dance. Its not that im bragging but it just means i have the talent to dance. I want to dance. Neh it looks like I am not going to dance anymore except for teacher's day. They could have just said no when i asked you if i can join the dance. You could have spared the lecture. I've heard the same lecture everytime. It just makes me go all watery and teary. It just sucks. It does. I've told you everything everytime. It just shows that you dont have trust in me. thats all. I explains all. I can control myself, i can take care of myself you see. Grrrrr. Im tired. Im just tired. Tired of crying tired of telling you things tired of you not appreciating me and dont bother to listen. When i tried to share my problems or tried to be close to you, you wont listen or in the end i get a lecture or a scolding. Well i've heard enough. Please nomore of your same old lecture. it will just make me go a distance away or further from you. Oh well, i just cant be bothered anymore.
My birthday is coming and this is what i get. Oh how great! Thats just superb. How amazing it could be. I suggest you do it more oftenly. Especially on special occasions huh. ;) . Whatever. I have no plans for my birthday, i think i'll just stay home and rot with chocolates and ice creams. Thats the best thing that could have happened to me. I want to go to the movies and have a movie marathon. I want to watch stomp the yard, meet the robinsons, freedom writers, mukshin, tmnt, mr bean's holidays.. Oh my, i am so pathetic la. No one to go with. My gfs, they have their own plans. So, i will just occupy myself with the chocolates and ice creams. All the fatty junks. I guess im going to get fatter lah.. *sigh* k byess.